I know not many read my journals on FA or DA, but any ways here is a random rant on my life, since things been building up and I just need a nice little relief and let it out.

First, I had been having school money issues with Art Institute, first my aid and loans are in then they disappear on my third and fourth classes. With the third class I had to figure out how to get $50 just to pay for books on part of my missing money that was met for them. Then the fourth class all my aid and loan money disappeared and I never was able to get my books for my point perspective class that I am finishing up right now. Since the Art Institute is having all these money issues with me and other students, I decided to return to the one college I first transferred out of. That is because with Indiana’s Ivy Tech, I don’t need both loans and aid just to take classes, especially when in the end of it all and I graduate I wont having a 90,000 loan waiting to start being paid off with Ivy Tech. That is because if I a choice of pick up student loans with Ivy Tech if I really need it. Art Institute I don’t have that choice cause of how expensive the school is, I need both the 90,000 loan and aid. However, since I am going back to the other college the Art loan should be at no more the 4,000-6,000 right now, as it is. Last thing with the Art Institute is that they never switched me to the degree I want, they just stuck me with Graphic Design, and I wanted to aim for Media Arts and Animation.

However, it isn’t just the school loans that are making me wish I had a job or a stable income, it is also my family. Ever since I moved back, things started out nicely for me, I got into high school and graduated in 2003, but ever since my last year of high school my Aunt V. been treating as if I was a retarded person that is unable to find a good job. It was the last year of high school that my Aunt V. started to call me a ‘Fat Ass Lazy Bitch’. I know she may not recall it anymore, but I haven’t forgotten about it. She called me that then, and then in 2006 when I first started college, the once more in January of 2009 when I first started to plan to transfer to Art Institute. Then she gets pissed at me for stopping this disability stuff because she thinks I am disabled just because occasionally I lose my balance or trip over my own feet. In which that is just natural human clumsiness. She also treats me as if I am a five year old that doesn’t know how to do things on my own. Now as of lately she seems to be turning my grandma to think that about me as well and I recently this month and last have been having just as many fights with her as my Aunt V. All I know is I only want to stay in Indiana until I finish college, and then try to move as far away as possible. I am so tired of my family treating as if I am nothing more than a piece of shit, when in all after grandma has helped me out so many times and I been trying to return the favor. However, in the midst of it all… it is starting to turn out as if I am not welcome to do that because of what my Aunt says. Than as of lately it seems it seems what my aunt wants she gets, just like a spoiled rotten child these days. And because of that the feud between me her and grand just grows bigger like a fires flame when you feed it more wood.

Anyways, if anyone read this, thanks for taking time into doing so and allowing me little relief of small weight being lifted off my shoulders to.

Ginkitsune Yasha